You

I know this is wrong
and if You're reading this,
You probably think I'm crazy.
But I can't help my feelings.

Are they just feelings?

I never heard your laugh before,
But it plays over in my mind continuously.

And your face,
it smiles at me throughout the day and the dark cold night.

at least,
it used to smile.

Why can't I STOP!?

I cry under my sheets.

and turn up my music box to drown out the pain
or strengthen it,

Whatever.

I had dreams
and (ugh! should I even be writing this?!)

you were in them.

we were in them (why am I writing this?...publicly)

By now,
You know I'm crazy
Insane even?

I probably am.

So I just write Words to pass the time.

Wondering if dreams are real or just illusions.
Just dreams.

Just Dreams?